For a week I basically starved myself. The first couple days I would eat one small meal (a falafel sandwich or something of equal size/proportion) and the rest of the week consisted of a handful of crackers at night or a tiny salad with fat free dressing. I've been eating between 250-500 calories a day for over a week now and I punish myself for anything over that amount. I feel disgusting after what I just ate today...two 100 calorie packs of chocolate chip cookies, two pieces of bread, a chocolate lollipop, and a handful of pistachios. I'm at my all time low (118) but I won't stop until I reach 115, my ultimate goal. I know I ate next to nothing today but I feel bloated and gross.