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  miss_kg
 
02:38pm 04/04/2010
  hey hey hey

my name is katelyn , i am a taste it twice kinda gal ;) i also suffer from BDD and i like to restrict my eating cause it makea me feel real good....... if that was an intro to eharmony or another dating site i would be all alone...... but i still have the food!!!

i cant wait to meet everyone
 
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  sherrixbaby
 
03:56am 27/02/2010
  Hi, I am a 22 year old female suffering from both anorexia and bulimia. I hope this isn't against your rules, but I just wanted to tell you about my forum. www.emotionalawareness.lefora.com

I'm not here to spam or anything, and I would like to be an active member of this group, but I just wanted to tell you about my forum, as we touch on topics such as eating disorders, depression, phobias, anxiety/panic, bipolar, abuse, borderline, addiction, etc.

My forum is just getting started, but I would really appreciate it if you would check it out and maybe tell your friends who might need some support.

Thanks guys! <3
 
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  silvermoonchild
 
03:54pm 01/04/2009
  i need a connection in fort pierce,fl!

772-940-9367
 
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  silvermoonchild
 
05:53pm 10/12/2008
  where can i get help for my eating disorder in fort pierce, fl?  
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  iheart8bit
 
11:19pm 10/04/2008
 
lol_anaz
A community basically for making fun of wannarexics and people who think eating disorders are cool. Thinking an ED is a great way to lose weight so they can look like people in magazines.
We're a bunch of eating disordered girls and boys, who are tired of all the people who think they have a disorder by skipping dinner one day. Fantastic place to join if you have a sense of humour and tired of people not respecting what an eating disorder really is about.
 
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Eating disorder bloggers wanted for survey 
  rachelr59
 
12:28pm 31/03/2008
  I am a current graduate student researching the social history of food-related disorders, inspired, in large part, from my own struggles with anorexia and bulimia.  I'm conducting an anonymous survey of bloggers who blog about eating disorders or eating disorder recovery in partnership with a clinical psychologist for joint research and publication purposes.

I'm hoping our survey generates lots of responses so that our findings are well-rounded, inclusive and convincing.  The only two requirements are that you must have an active blog and that it must address, at least in part, your experiences with an eating disorder.  I'm hoping for responses from people of all ages and genders who are in all stages of recovery and who suffer from a diversity of eating disorders, from anorexia to binge eating disorder to ed-nos to orthorexia. 

If the scope of the study pertains to your own experiences, I invite you to participate by taking it.  More information and a survey link can be found here or http://the-f-word.org/blog/index.php/2008/03/23/eating-disordered-bloggers-wanted-for-survey/

Thank you!

Rachel Richardson
 
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winter break FAT 
  malibubarbie714
 
11:41pm 28/12/2006
 
mood: cranky
so when break started i was 115... an ok weight but now almost 3 week into breask im 125!!! i totally let go after break with all the big family dinners and such and im struggling getting back into not eating because it feels nice being full but i look in the mirror and im disgusted i refuse to wear anythign but hoodies till i loose the weight im looking for a buddy that is trying to loose liek 15-20 pounds in a couple weeks to do it with me.. let me know if anyone else in interested in doing the same!! i need to get this holiday weight off me its so gross!!
 
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  reenybopper
 
12:58pm 09/09/2006
  I went on vacation for a week and I knew that I had put on a few pounds, not a huge deal. But. Twice in one week two separate friends said that they could tell. One said that he thought I put on some weight and the other said that I look thicker than I used to. So. I haven't eaten in 5 days. And I love how I am starting to look. The end.  
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Crying inside 
  laura_j20
 
12:42pm 23/07/2006
 

I can't believe what i'm feeling inside, i just want to run and hide, hide away from this pain, these feelings of being unwanted, unappreciated, neglected. People say i love you, i care for you, i'm glad to know you, but i ask myself do they really mean it? Do they really know who i am? I give too much of myself away, I feel i have nothing that's mine. I've shared everything i have with so many people and for what? What my feelings mean to me, what i care about most, means nothing to the people i tell it to. To you it's just another bit of gossip, some more meaningless information that will be tossed aside and forgotten, but to me it's so much more. To me it's the little and important parts of my life that i willingly share in the hope that you will listen, in the hope that you will care. I cry to you, i laugh with you, i listen to you, but i care about what you say, i remember and try my best to help with any problems. I realise now that all the people who i have in my life, take me for granted, use me and that see me as just another girl who sees life so positively, i now realise that i have always overlooked this and pretended they really liked me, cared and appreciated me being there, but it's all a lie. They toss me aside as soon as they get what they want but always come back when they are ready to use me again, when they need me again. But i feel in the end i always get thrown away to never be remembered, to be forgotten and replaced by something better. It hurts that i have a constant pain in my chest, a neverending reminder of all the poeple i have loved and trusted have hurt me in ways i could never imagine. I sit here and wonder how people could be so selfish and heartless, why they could hurt someone and then brush them off like a bit of dirt on their hands. Life is all one big lie, and the people are all so fake, so self-centered. Everyone does things so in the end it works out better for them. But that's not what it's about. You have to find someone really special, that's there for you and treat them with the same kindness and respect that they show you. But i have not found this, and doubt i ever will. I have not come across anyone to be like this. So who do i turn to? i Have nothing to lose anymore as it's all been given out only to be trampled on moments later. I don't want to share myself with anyone anymore, noone deserves to be feeling the way i do. From now on, what's mine is going to stay mine, I will no longer give out my most treasured qualities and i will now hide away from everyone, so i will hopefully never be found.
Laura

 
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interesting article 
  fattty
 
10:04am 16/06/2006
  http://www.aphroditewomenshealth.com/news/pro-ana.shtml  
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I've been really bad lately. 
  reenybopper
 
11:41pm 15/06/2006
 
mood: melancholy
For a week I basically starved myself. The first couple days I would eat one small meal (a falafel sandwich or something of equal size/proportion) and the rest of the week consisted of a handful of crackers at night or a tiny salad with fat free dressing. I've been eating between 250-500 calories a day for over a week now and I punish myself for anything over that amount. I feel disgusting after what I just ate today...two 100 calorie packs of chocolate chip cookies, two pieces of bread, a chocolate lollipop, and a handful of pistachios. I'm at my all time low (118) but I won't stop until I reach 115, my ultimate goal. I know I ate next to nothing today but I feel bloated and gross.
 
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  pinkis89
 
09:04pm 07/05/2006
  I'm going for blood tests on Wednesday morning as part of the outpatient stuff my mom is making me do
So I have to have results with low amylase levels and I wanna know what stuff I can do to maybe decrease them. I'm not purging for 4 days (sooo hard) and drinking lemon juice and massaging my salivary glands but I wanted to know if theres anything else that would work!
 
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  fattty
 
05:34am 02/05/2006
  time check: 5am
reason for being up: nightmare about fast food service places & restaurants that served all kinds of icecream, and soft serve icecream, with tones of toppings and sundaes, etc. In my nightmare I had the same feeling, thoughts, and actions as I do when I go through my obsession restriction stages. anorexic stages. Stages where I intensly watch people eat, bake, feed people, etc. And I woke up so dissgusted with that feeling, and craving icecream like there was no tomorrow, as if to prove to myself that i didn't ever want to be in that position again. Didn't ever want to feel that way again. Ever. So i walked down to the kitchen, got out an icecream cone and put two scoops of chocolate chip cherry vanilla icecream on it (wich is the first icecream my mother has bought and allowed in the house in ages... years?). and enjoyed the whole fucking thing. Not in a binge way. not as someone starved would eat it. I swear to god I ate this icream like a normal fucking person. And I am soooo happy right now.
 
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low 
  jennyfer_s
 
06:48pm 21/02/2006
  i feel sick when i look at my reflection in shop windows i have been away from bulimia for about 18 months and i feel fat and horrible and its all because i suppose i have been happy with my boyfiend. i know he loves me and he tells me all the time, but how can he find me attractive(which he always makes very clear he does) when i look fat and bloated. well iv had it with feeling this way and need to get back on track. Need motivation.  
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  givemeashout
 
03:00pm 12/02/2006
  recovery?

experiences anyone?
 
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long time no see 
  eweedtarded
 
04:13am 24/11/2005
  its been a while....i stoped all my habbits for a long time
and now im falling right back into the swing of things
i hate myself more so then ever before
i honestly had thought i was becoming happy
and now...i just see myself more then i ever did before
ive changed my hair...changed my dress style to things im more comfortable with
ive gottin pierced..getting my first tattoo this friday
but i cant seem to take my eyes off the fact that my ankels are huge
my tummy is larger then ever
my thighs are fucking enourmous
and ugh
i could go on and on...
tis the season for food...or the devil however you'd like to put it
and my being a little behind anyone have any new ideas on weight loss medications? and or laxatives?
i had been on adderal for a while but i got used to it pretty quickly and there for stoped loosing the weight...
any help would be awesome!
xo
 
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  dancerthin
 
02:11am 18/09/2005
  hi guys I am new i am 22, and have been mia for some time i would like to stop and be ana again. its so hard to stop purging!  
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  b___mia
 
10:41pm 14/08/2005
  Down 2 pounds.


purged all of twice today.

Only ate twice today.

Bleh. Exhausted. This years going to suck at school.
 
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  b___mia
 
11:49pm 13/08/2005
  I'm so sad right now.

My boyfriend won't answer the phone.

All I want is some attention.

I feel really heartbroken for some reason.

I hate myself.

I'm crying my eyes out, nothing really triggered it. I just don't want to exist. Or be me.

I'm so sad.

I've been prep talking myself for the past few days.

I've been purging a lot. I haven't been eating a lot.

I just.

Hate.

Myself.
 
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  b___mia
 
08:35pm 13/08/2005
  Hi. I'm new. I don't know what to say really.

I'm severely bulimic, every now and again I have the anorexic tendencies. There are days when I can b/p up to 30 times. I've never liked myself, for many reasons, and developed an eating disorder my freshmen year.

I hate it. I love it. It defines me. It destroys me.

The usual. Ya know.

I'm 5'5". When this all started I weighed about 190. I constantly gain and lose. The lowest I've been is 129. Last winter I was put into therapy and officially.. I guess.. diagnosed with depression, anxiety, bulimia, and anorexia. Good deal eh.

Fattest fuckin anorexic I've ever seen.

I currently weigh about 149. I plan on weighing under 130 by at the very least Christmas.

I wish I could get over this. It tears my boyfriend up. It tears my parents up. I quit therapy about a month ago. I couldn't take it.

I've been really depressed the past couple of days. I don't know if it's pms, or if I'm just really upset that my boyfriend won't be at school with me this year. He graduated this past summer.

He's the only one who I can feel completely comfortable around, and when I'm with him, I generally don't worry about my weight or how I look or what I eat.

Seeing as it's my senior year, there's the added stress of college applications and my senior project and going to work.

Bleh. I don't even know what I'm rambling on about anymore.

Ummm.. the end.
 
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